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2008-04-29 07:23雷瓊?cè)A
中學(xué)生英語高效課堂探究 2008年4期
雷瓊?cè)A
When I was growing up, I was embarrassed to be seen with my father. He was severely crippled and very short, and when we would walk together, his hand on my arm for balance, people would stare. I would inwardly squirm at the unwanted attention. If he ever noticed or was bothered, he never let on.
It was difficult to coordinate our steps—his halting, mine impatient—and because of that, we didnt say much as we went along. But as we started out, he always said, “You set the pace. I will try to adjust to you. ”
Our usual walk was to or from the subway, which was how he got to work. He went to work sick, and despite nasty weather. He almost never missed a day, and would make it to the office even if others could not. A matter of pride.
When snow or ice was on the ground, it was impossible for him to walk, even with help. At such times my sisters or I would pull him through the streets of Brooklyn, NY, on a childs sleigh to the subway entrance. Once there, he would cling to the handrail until he reached the lower steps that the warmer tunnel air kept ice-free. In Manhattan the subway station was the basement of his office building, and he would not have to go outside again until we met him in Brooklyn on his way home.
When I think of it now, I marvel at how much courage it must have taken for a grown man to subject himself to such indignity and stress. And at how he did it—without bitterness or complaint.
He never talked about himself as an object of pity, nor did he show any envy of the more fortunate or able. What he looked for in others was a “good heart”, and if he found one, the owner was good enough for him.
Now that I am older, I believe that is a proper standard by which to judge people, even though I still dont know precisely what a “good heart” is. But I know the times I dont have one myself.
Unable to engage in many activities, my father still tried to participate in some way. When a local sandlot baseball team found itself without a manager, he kept it going. He was a knowledgeable baseball fan and often took me to Ebbets Field to see the Brooklyn Dodgers play. He liked to go to dances and parties, where he could have a good time just sitting and watching.
On one memorable occasion a fight broke out at a beach party, with everyone punching and shoving. He wasnt content to sit and watch, but he couldnt stand unaided on the soft sand. In frustration he began to shout, “Ill fight anyone who will sit down with me!”
Nobody did. But the next day people kidded him by saying it was the first time any fighter was urged to take a dive even before the bout began.
I now know he participated in some things vicariously through me, his only son. When I played ball （poorly）, he “played” too. When I joined the Navy, he “joined” too. And when I came home on leave, he saw to it that I visited his office. Introducing me, he was really saying, “This is my son, but it is also me, and I could have done this, too, if things had been different”. Those words were never said aloud.
He has been gone many years now, but I think of him often. I wonder if he sensed my reluctance to be seen with him during our walks. If he did, I am sorry I never told him how sorry I was, how unworthy I was, how I regretted it. I think of him when I complain about trifles, when I am envious of anothers good fortune, when I dont have a “good heart”.
At such times I put my hand on his arm to regain my balance, and say, “You set the pace, I will try to adjust to you.”
在我成長(zhǎng)的過程中，我一直羞于讓別人看見我和父親在一起。我的父親身材矮小，腿上有嚴(yán)重的殘疾。當(dāng)我們一起走路時(shí)，他總是挽著我以保持身體平衡，這時(shí)總招來一些異樣的目光，令我無地自容?？墒羌幢闼⒁獾搅诉@些，不管他內(nèi)心多么痛苦，他也從不表現(xiàn)出來。
走路時(shí)，我們很難相互協(xié)調(diào)起來——他的步子慢慢吞吞，我的步子焦燥不安。所以一路上我們交談得很少。但是每次出行前，他總是說，“你走你的，我想法兒跟上你”。
我們常常往返于從家到他上班乘坐的地鐵站的那段路上。他生病時(shí)也要上班，哪怕天氣十分惡劣。他幾乎從未誤過一天工，就是在別人不能去的情況下，他也要設(shè)法去上班。這實(shí)在值得驕傲！
每當(dāng)冰封大地，雪花飄飄的時(shí)候，即使有人幫助，他也舉步維艱。每當(dāng)此時(shí)，我或我的姐妹們就用兒童雪橇把他拉過紐約布魯克林區(qū)的街道，一直送他到地鐵的入口處。一到那兒，他便手抓扶手一直走到底下的臺(tái)階時(shí)才放開手，因?yàn)槟抢锿ǖ赖目諝馀托?，地面上沒有結(jié)冰。到了曼哈頓，地鐵站就在他辦公樓的地下一層，在我們?cè)诓剪斂肆纸铀丶抑八麩o須再走出樓來。
如今每當(dāng)我想起這些，我驚嘆一個(gè)成年男子要經(jīng)受住這種侮辱和壓力得需要多么大的勇氣??！我嘆服他竟然能夠做到這一點(diǎn)，不帶任何痛苦，也沒有絲毫抱怨。
他從不說自己可憐，也從不嫉妒別人的幸運(yùn)和能力。他所期望的是人家“善良的心”，當(dāng)他得到時(shí)，人家真的對(duì)他很好。
如今我已經(jīng)長(zhǎng)大成人了，我明白了“善良的心”是評(píng)價(jià)人的恰當(dāng)?shù)臉?biāo)準(zhǔn)，盡管我仍不很清楚它的確切涵義，但是我卻知道我有缺乏善心的時(shí)候。
雖然父親不能參加許多活動(dòng)，但他仍然設(shè)法以某種方式參與進(jìn)來。當(dāng)一個(gè)地方棒球隊(duì)發(fā)現(xiàn)缺少一個(gè)領(lǐng)隊(duì)時(shí)，他便作了領(lǐng)隊(duì)。因?yàn)樗莻€(gè)棒球迷，有豐富的棒球知識(shí)，他過去常帶我到埃比茨棒球場(chǎng)觀看布魯克林的鬼精靈隊(duì)的比賽。他喜歡參加舞會(huì)和晚會(huì)，樂意坐著看。
記得有一次的海邊晚會(huì)上，有人打架，動(dòng)了拳頭，推推搡搡。他不甘于坐在那里當(dāng)觀眾，但又無法在松軟的沙灘上自己站起來。于是，失望之下，他吼了起來：“誰想坐下來和我打？”沒有人響應(yīng)。
但是第二天，人們都取笑他說比賽還沒開始，拳擊手就被勸認(rèn)輸，這還是頭一次看見。
現(xiàn)在我知道一些事情他是通過我——他唯一的兒子來代做的。當(dāng)我打球時(shí)（盡管我打得很差），他也在“打球”。當(dāng)我參加海軍時(shí)，他也“參加”。當(dāng)時(shí)我回家休息時(shí)，他一定要讓我去他的辦公室，在介紹我時(shí)，他真真切切地說，“這是我兒子，但也是我自己，假如事情不是這樣的話，我也會(huì)去參軍的?！边@些話都是細(xì)聲軟氣說出來的。
父親離開我們已經(jīng)很多年了，但是我時(shí)常想起他。我不知道他是否意識(shí)到我曾經(jīng)不愿意讓人看到和他走在一起的心理。假如他知道這一切，我現(xiàn)在感到很遺憾，因?yàn)槲覐臎]告訴過他我是多么愧疚、多么不孝、多么悔恨。每當(dāng)我為一些瑣事而抱怨時(shí)，為別人的好運(yùn)而妒忌時(shí)，當(dāng)我自己缺乏“善心”時(shí)，我就會(huì)想起我的父親。
此時(shí)，我會(huì)挽著他的胳膊保持身體的平衡，并且說，“你走你的，我想法兒跟上你。”
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雷瓊?cè)A
When I was growing up, I was embarrassed to be seen with my father. He was severely crippled and very short, and when we would walk together, his hand on my arm for balance, people would stare. I would inwardly squirm at the unwanted attention. If he ever noticed or was bothered, he never let on.
It was difficult to coordinate our steps—his halting, mine impatient—and because of that, we didnt say much as we went along. But as we started out, he always said, “You set the pace. I will try to adjust to you. ”
Our usual walk was to or from the subway, which was how he got to work. He went to work sick, and despite nasty weather. He almost never missed a day, and would make it to the office even if others could not. A matter of pride.
When snow or ice was on the ground, it was impossible for him to walk, even with help. At such times my sisters or I would pull him through the streets of Brooklyn, NY, on a childs sleigh to the subway entrance. Once there, he would cling to the handrail until he reached the lower steps that the warmer tunnel air kept ice-free. In Manhattan the subway station was the basement of his office building, and he would not have to go outside again until we met him in Brooklyn on his way home.
When I think of it now, I marvel at how much courage it must have taken for a grown man to subject himself to such indignity and stress. And at how he did it—without bitterness or complaint.
He never talked about himself as an object of pity, nor did he show any envy of the more fortunate or able. What he looked for in others was a “good heart”, and if he found one, the owner was good enough for him.
Now that I am older, I believe that is a proper standard by which to judge people, even though I still dont know precisely what a “good heart” is. But I know the times I dont have one myself.
Unable to engage in many activities, my father still tried to participate in some way. When a local sandlot baseball team found itself without a manager, he kept it going. He was a knowledgeable baseball fan and often took me to Ebbets Field to see the Brooklyn Dodgers play. He liked to go to dances and parties, where he could have a good time just sitting and watching.
On one memorable occasion a fight broke out at a beach party, with everyone punching and shoving. He wasnt content to sit and watch, but he couldnt stand unaided on the soft sand. In frustration he began to shout, “Ill fight anyone who will sit down with me!”
Nobody did. But the next day people kidded him by saying it was the first time any fighter was urged to take a dive even before the bout began.
I now know he participated in some things vicariously through me, his only son. When I played ball （poorly）, he “played” too. When I joined the Navy, he “joined” too. And when I came home on leave, he saw to it that I visited his office. Introducing me, he was really saying, “This is my son, but it is also me, and I could have done this, too, if things had been different”. Those words were never said aloud.
He has been gone many years now, but I think of him often. I wonder if he sensed my reluctance to be seen with him during our walks. If he did, I am sorry I never told him how sorry I was, how unworthy I was, how I regretted it. I think of him when I complain about trifles, when I am envious of anothers good fortune, when I dont have a “good heart”.
At such times I put my hand on his arm to regain my balance, and say, “You set the pace, I will try to adjust to you.”
在我成長(zhǎng)的過程中，我一直羞于讓別人看見我和父親在一起。我的父親身材矮小，腿上有嚴(yán)重的殘疾。當(dāng)我們一起走路時(shí)，他總是挽著我以保持身體平衡，這時(shí)總招來一些異樣的目光，令我無地自容?？墒羌幢闼⒁獾搅诉@些，不管他內(nèi)心多么痛苦，他也從不表現(xiàn)出來。
走路時(shí)，我們很難相互協(xié)調(diào)起來——他的步子慢慢吞吞，我的步子焦燥不安。所以一路上我們交談得很少。但是每次出行前，他總是說，“你走你的，我想法兒跟上你”。
我們常常往返于從家到他上班乘坐的地鐵站的那段路上。他生病時(shí)也要上班，哪怕天氣十分惡劣。他幾乎從未誤過一天工，就是在別人不能去的情況下，他也要設(shè)法去上班。這實(shí)在值得驕傲！
每當(dāng)冰封大地，雪花飄飄的時(shí)候，即使有人幫助，他也舉步維艱。每當(dāng)此時(shí)，我或我的姐妹們就用兒童雪橇把他拉過紐約布魯克林區(qū)的街道，一直送他到地鐵的入口處。一到那兒，他便手抓扶手一直走到底下的臺(tái)階時(shí)才放開手，因?yàn)槟抢锿ǖ赖目諝馀托?，地面上沒有結(jié)冰。到了曼哈頓，地鐵站就在他辦公樓的地下一層，在我們?cè)诓剪斂肆纸铀丶抑八麩o須再走出樓來。
如今每當(dāng)我想起這些，我驚嘆一個(gè)成年男子要經(jīng)受住這種侮辱和壓力得需要多么大的勇氣??！我嘆服他竟然能夠做到這一點(diǎn)，不帶任何痛苦，也沒有絲毫抱怨。
他從不說自己可憐，也從不嫉妒別人的幸運(yùn)和能力。他所期望的是人家“善良的心”，當(dāng)他得到時(shí)，人家真的對(duì)他很好。
如今我已經(jīng)長(zhǎng)大成人了，我明白了“善良的心”是評(píng)價(jià)人的恰當(dāng)?shù)臉?biāo)準(zhǔn)，盡管我仍不很清楚它的確切涵義，但是我卻知道我有缺乏善心的時(shí)候。
雖然父親不能參加許多活動(dòng)，但他仍然設(shè)法以某種方式參與進(jìn)來。當(dāng)一個(gè)地方棒球隊(duì)發(fā)現(xiàn)缺少一個(gè)領(lǐng)隊(duì)時(shí)，他便作了領(lǐng)隊(duì)。因?yàn)樗莻€(gè)棒球迷，有豐富的棒球知識(shí)，他過去常帶我到埃比茨棒球場(chǎng)觀看布魯克林的鬼精靈隊(duì)的比賽。他喜歡參加舞會(huì)和晚會(huì)，樂意坐著看。
記得有一次的海邊晚會(huì)上，有人打架，動(dòng)了拳頭，推推搡搡。他不甘于坐在那里當(dāng)觀眾，但又無法在松軟的沙灘上自己站起來。于是，失望之下，他吼了起來：“誰想坐下來和我打？”沒有人響應(yīng)。
但是第二天，人們都取笑他說比賽還沒開始，拳擊手就被勸認(rèn)輸，這還是頭一次看見。
現(xiàn)在我知道一些事情他是通過我——他唯一的兒子來代做的。當(dāng)我打球時(shí)（盡管我打得很差），他也在“打球”。當(dāng)我參加海軍時(shí)，他也“參加”。當(dāng)時(shí)我回家休息時(shí)，他一定要讓我去他的辦公室，在介紹我時(shí)，他真真切切地說，“這是我兒子，但也是我自己，假如事情不是這樣的話，我也會(huì)去參軍的?！边@些話都是細(xì)聲軟氣說出來的。
父親離開我們已經(jīng)很多年了，但是我時(shí)常想起他。我不知道他是否意識(shí)到我曾經(jīng)不愿意讓人看到和他走在一起的心理。假如他知道這一切，我現(xiàn)在感到很遺憾，因?yàn)槲覐臎]告訴過他我是多么愧疚、多么不孝、多么悔恨。每當(dāng)我為一些瑣事而抱怨時(shí)，為別人的好運(yùn)而妒忌時(shí)，當(dāng)我自己缺乏“善心”時(shí)，我就會(huì)想起我的父親。
此時(shí)，我會(huì)挽著他的胳膊保持身體的平衡，并且說，“你走你的，我想法兒跟上你。”
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