女兒寫給父親的一封信

蘇珊

Dear Dad，

Today I was at the shopping mall and I spent a lot of time reading the Fathers Day cards. They all had a special message that in some way or another reflected how I feel about you. Yet as I selected and read, and selected and read again, it occurred to me that not a single card said what I really want to say to you.

Youll soon be 84 years old, Dad, and you and I will have had 55 Fathers Days together. I havent always been with you on Fathers Day nor have I been with you for all of your birthdays. It wasnt because I didnt want to be with you. Ive always been with you in my heart but sometimes life gets in the way.

You know, Dad, there was a time when we were not only separated by the generation gap but completely polarized by it. You stood on one side of the Great Divide and I on the other, father and daughter split apart by age and experience, opinions, hairstyles, cosmetics, clothing, curfews, music, and boys.

The Father-Daughter Duel of 54 shifted into high gear when you taught me to drive the old Dodge and I decided I would drive the54 Chevy whether you liked it or not. The police officer who escorted me home after you reported the Chevy stolen late one evening was too young to understand father-daughter politics and too old to have much tolerance for a snotty 16 year old. You were so decent about it, Dad, and I think that was probably what made it the worst night of my life.

Our relationship improved immensely when I married a man you liked, and things really turned around when we begin making babies right and left. We didnt have a television set, you know, and we had to entertain ourselves somehow. I didnt know what to expect of you and Mom as grandparents but I didnt have to wait long to find out. Those babies adored you then just as they adore you now. When I see you with all your grandchildren, I know youve given them the finest gift a grandparent can give. Youve given them yourself.

Somewhere along the line, the generation gap evaporated. Age separates us now and little else. We agree on almost everything, perhaps because weve learned there isnt much worth disagreeing about. However, I would like to mention that fly fishing isnt all youve cracked it up to be, Dad. You can say what you want about wrist action and stance and blah, blah, blah.

Ive been happily drifting for a lot of years, Dad, and I didnt see you getting older.

I suppose I saw us and our relationship as aging together, rather like a fine wine. Numbers never seemed important. But the oddest thing happened last week. I was at a stop sign and I watched as you turned the corner in your car. It didnt immediately occur to me that it was you because the man driving looked so elderly and fragile behind the wheel of that huge car. It was rather like a slap in the face delivered from out of nowhere. Perhaps I saw your age for the first time that day. Or maybe I saw my own.

Fifty years ago this spring we planted kohlrabi together in a garden in Charles City, Iowa.I didnt know then that I would remember that day for the rest of my life. This week, well plant kohlrabi together again, perhaps for the last time but I hope not. I dont understand why planting kohlrabi with you is so important to me but it is. And the funny thing about it is, well, I dont know quite how to tell you this, Dad I dont even like kohlrabi but I like planting it with you.

I guess what Im trying to say, Dad, is what every son and daughter wants to say to their Dad today. Honoring a Father on Fathers Day is about more than a Dad who brings home a paycheck, shares a dinner table, and attends school functions, graduations, and weddings. It isnt even so much about kohlrabi, 54 Chevrolets, and fly-fishing. Its more about unconditionally loving children who are snotty and stubborn, who know everything and wont listen to anyone. Its about respect and sharing and acceptance and tolerance and giving and taking. Its about loving someone more than words can say，and its wishing that it never had to end.

I love you，Dad！

父親節(jié)前，女兒寫給將要84歲的老父親一封信，信中說：“爸爸，有的時(shí)候因?yàn)榉N種原因我總不能跟您一起過父親節(jié)。我們?cè)写鷾稀⒚?，但是父女關(guān)系像一瓶好酒，越陳越香。世界上最大的小偷就是時(shí)間，因?yàn)樗底吡四那啻?，父親節(jié)將至，祝天下所有為了自己孩子默默奉獻(xiàn)一生的爸爸們“父親節(jié)快樂！”

親愛的爸爸，

今天我在商場(chǎng)的時(shí)候, 我讀了好長(zhǎng)時(shí)間的有關(guān)“父親節(jié)”的賀卡。那些卡片上面的文字很特別，也或多或少地表達(dá)出了我對(duì)您的感受。我挑選讀過一次后，又挑選讀了一遍，但并沒有一張賀卡表達(dá)出了我想對(duì)您說的話。

爸爸，很快您就要84歲了，您和我也將度過這第55個(gè)“父親節(jié)”?！案赣H節(jié)”的那天，我總是不能和您在一起，連您過生日的時(shí)候我也是這樣，但這并不是因?yàn)槲也幌肱阍谀磉?。其?shí)，在我心里，我總是和您在一起。不過，有的時(shí)候，生活也會(huì)有差錯(cuò)。

爸爸，您也知道，我們父女倆曾有一段時(shí)間因?yàn)榇鷾喜辉谝黄疬^，比如年齡、個(gè)人閱歷、觀點(diǎn)、發(fā)型、化妝、服裝、音樂、作息時(shí)間以及男朋友，因?yàn)檫@些，我們的觀點(diǎn)也非常對(duì)立。您站在“大分離”的一端，我站在“大分離”的另一端。

那時(shí)，您教我學(xué)開那輛道奇舊車，可我卻不管您喜歡不喜歡執(zhí)意要開雪拂蘭54那輛車。當(dāng)時(shí)，我們父女倆關(guān)于雪拂蘭汽車的爭(zhēng)執(zhí)也調(diào)到了最高擋。可那天晚上，您卻報(bào)警說雪拂蘭車被盜。之后，一個(gè)警官把我護(hù)送到家，可他太年輕了，根本不明白我們父女倆之間的政治斗爭(zhēng)，可他也不小了，對(duì)一個(gè)16歲的流鼻涕的小孩卻沒有太多的耐心。爸爸，您倒對(duì)這件事處理得很體面，而我想那可能是我一生中最糟糕的一個(gè)夜晚吧。

在我嫁了一個(gè)您喜歡的女婿后，我們倆之間的關(guān)系才緩和了好多。后來，我們?yōu)榱撕煤玫厣鷤€(gè)孩子，就離開了，我們之間的那些事情也就結(jié)束了。這事您也知道，我們沒有電視機(jī)看，我們就只好自?shī)首詷妨恕Ｎ也恢牢疫€能對(duì)作為外公外婆的您和媽媽抱什么期望，但是，沒等很久我就找到了答案。過去那些孩子熱愛您，現(xiàn)在他們還像以前那樣熱愛您。當(dāng)我看見您和您的外孫在一起的時(shí)候，我知道您已經(jīng)給了他們最好的禮物，您把自己都給他們了。

就是這樣，您我之間的代溝慢慢消失了?，F(xiàn)在年齡和其它一些問題的差異把您和我分開，可我們?cè)诤芏嗍虑樯系目捶ǘ际且粯拥模@可能是因?yàn)槲覀兠靼琢藳]有那么多的事情值得我們爭(zhēng)辯吧。然而，我想提示一下的是，爸爸，飛蠅釣魚是您最喜歡的一種釣法，您可以說些您想做的手腕動(dòng)作、站姿和一些沒有用的話什么的。

爸爸，我已經(jīng)快樂地漂泊很多年了。然而，我卻從沒發(fā)現(xiàn)您在變老。

隨著年齡的增長(zhǎng)，我認(rèn)為您和我之間的關(guān)系慢慢地融洽了好多，就像是一瓶好酒，越陳越香。年齡看起來好像沒有一點(diǎn)意義似的。但是，上周發(fā)生了一件最奇怪的事情，我站在一個(gè)停車標(biāo)志旁，看見您開著車要拐彎?？墒俏也]有立刻意識(shí)到那是爸爸您。因?yàn)槟莻€(gè)人開著車，又在那部大車的車輪后面，就顯得他歲數(shù)很大，身體也很虛弱的樣子?？晌覅s感到不知道從哪里飛來一記耳光似的重重地打在我的臉上。也許，那是我第一次“看見”您的年齡，也許，只有我自己看見罷了。

五十年前的一個(gè)春天，我們?cè)谝腊⑷A州查理斯市的一個(gè)花園一起栽下苤藍(lán)菜。當(dāng)時(shí)我也不知道我以后會(huì)懷念那一天。這一周，我們還要在一起栽苤藍(lán)菜，這是第二次。也許，這是最后一次，可我并不希望那樣。我不明白為什么我和您一起栽苤藍(lán)菜我會(huì)感到很重要，可事實(shí)上就是。而且，關(guān)于這個(gè)，有個(gè)有意思的事情，可我不知道該怎么和您說這事，爸爸…… 我不喜歡苤藍(lán)菜……但是，我卻喜歡和您一起栽苤藍(lán)菜。

爸爸，我想我想要說的話是每個(gè)當(dāng)兒女在今天想和他們的爸爸要說的話。過“父親節(jié)”，給父親這么一個(gè)大的榮譽(yù)，決不是因?yàn)榘职纸o家里掙了多少錢，和家人一起共進(jìn)晚餐，參加學(xué)?；顒?dòng)，參加畢業(yè)典禮和婚禮，也不止是一起栽苤藍(lán)菜，開雪拂蘭54車和飛蠅釣魚的事，也不止是您毫無理由地愛那些流著鼻涕又很淘氣，而且什么都懂，就是不聽話的小孩。那是因?yàn)樽鹬?、分享、認(rèn)同和忍受、給予和接受。更是關(guān)于您那不能用語(yǔ)言所表達(dá)出來的愛。希望它們永不停止。

我愛你，爸爸！

（蘇 珊 供稿）