媽媽從沒(méi)告訴你的那些事

祝莉麗

1. You made her cry ... a lot. She cried when she found out she was pregnant. She cried as she gave birth to you. She cried when she first held you. She cried with happiness. She cried with fear. She cried with worry. She cried because she feels so deeply for you. She felt your pain and your happiness and she shared it with you， whether you realized it or not.

2. She wanted that last piece of pie. But when she saw you look at it with those big eyes and lick your mouth with that tiny tongue， she couldn't eat it. She knew it would make her much happier to see your little tummy be filled than hers.

3. She was always afraid. From the moment you were conceived1）， she did all in her power to protect you. She became your mama bear2）. She was that lady who wanted to say no when the little girl next door asked to hold you， and who cringed3）when she did， because in her mind no one could keep you as safe as she herself could. Her heart skipped two beats with your first steps. She stayed up late to make sure you got home safe， and woke up early to see you off to school. With every stubbed4） toe and little stumble5）， she was close by； she was ready to snatch6） you up with every bad dream or late night fever. She was there to make sure you were OK.

4. She knows she's not perfect. She is her own worst critic. She knows all her flaws and sometimes hates herself for them. She is hardest on herself when it comes to you， though. She wanted to be the perfect mom， to do nothing wrong—but because she is human， she made mistakes. She is probably still trying to forgive herself for them. She wishes with her whole heart that she could go back in time and do things differently， but she can't， so be kind to her， and know she did the best she knew how to do.

5. She watched you as you slept. There were nights when she was up 'til 3：00 a.m. praying that you would finally fall asleep. She could hardly keep her eyes open as she sang to you， and she would beg you to "please， please fall asleep." Then， when you finally fell asleep， she would lay you down and all her tiredness would disappear for a short second as she sat by your bedside looking down at your perfect cherub7） face， experiencing more love than she knew was possible， despite her worn-out arms and aching eyes.

6. She carried you a lot longer than nine months. You needed her to. So she did. She would learn to hold you while she cleaned； she would learn to hold you while she ate； she would even hold you while she slept， because it was the only way she could sometimes. Her arms would get tired， her back would hurt， but she held you still because you wanted to be close to her. She snuggled8 you， loved you， kissed you and played with you. You felt safe in her arms； you were happy in her arms； you knew you were loved in her arms， so she held you， as often and as long as you needed.

7. It broke her heart every time you cried. There was no sound as sad as your cries， or sight as horrible as the tears streaming down your perfect face. She did all in her power to stop you from crying， and when she couldn't stop your tears， her heart would shatter9） into a million little pieces.

8. She put you first. She went without food， without showers and without sleep. She always put your needs before her own. She would spend all day meeting your needs， and by the end of the day， she would have no energy left for herself. But the next day， she would wake up and do it all over again， because you meant that much to her.

9. She would do it all again. Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs anyone can do， and it will take you to your very limits sometimes. You cry， you hurt， you try， you fail， you work and you learn. But， you also experience more joy that you thought was possible and feel more love than your heart can contain. Despite all the pain， grief， late nights and early mornings you put your mom through， she would do it all again for you because you are worth it to her. So， next time you see her， tell your mom thank you； let her know that you love her. She can never hear it too many times.

你也許一直都知道，媽媽很愛(ài)你?？赡銋s不記得，你小的時(shí)候她怎樣愛(ài)你。因?yàn)殛P(guān)于你小時(shí)候那些滿含母愛(ài)的小小細(xì)節(jié)，媽媽從未告訴過(guò)你。

1. 你沒(méi)少讓她哭過(guò)。發(fā)現(xiàn)懷孕的時(shí)候，她哭了。把你生出來(lái)的時(shí)候，她哭了。第一次把你抱在懷里的時(shí)候，她哭了。她因?yàn)樾腋６奁?。她因?yàn)閾?dān)驚受怕而哭泣。她因?yàn)樘嵝牡跄懚奁?。她因?yàn)閷?duì)你懷有深厚的感情而哭泣。她體會(huì)著你的痛苦和快樂(lè)，并對(duì)此感同身受，無(wú)論你是否能意識(shí)到這一點(diǎn)。

2. 她想吃最后那塊餡餅。但是看到你用那雙大眼睛望著餡餅、小舌頭還舔著嘴唇的樣子，她就不忍心吃了。她很清楚，看到你小肚子飽飽的樣子比她自己吃飽更讓她開(kāi)心。

3. 她總是憂心忡忡。從懷上你的那一刻起，她就竭盡所能地去保護(hù)你。她變成了護(hù)崽的熊媽媽。她成了這樣的女人：當(dāng)隔壁的小女孩想抱你的時(shí)候，她會(huì)想拒絕；當(dāng)那個(gè)小女孩抱起你的時(shí)候，她會(huì)感到惴惴不安。因?yàn)樵谒睦铮瑳](méi)有人能像她自己一樣保證你的安全。你剛開(kāi)始學(xué)步時(shí)，她的心臟漏跳了幾拍。她熬到深夜等你安全到家，早早醒來(lái)好送你出門(mén)上學(xué)。每當(dāng)你不小心磕到腳趾或有些許磕絆，她總是在你身邊。她總是時(shí)刻準(zhǔn)備著把你從每一個(gè)可怕夢(mèng)魘或午夜的高燒中解救出來(lái)。她就在那里守衛(wèi)著，確保你一切都好。

4. 她知道自己并不完美。她對(duì)自己極度嚴(yán)苛。她知道自己所有的缺點(diǎn)，有時(shí)還會(huì)因此而討厭自己。不過(guò)，當(dāng)涉及你的時(shí)候，她對(duì)自己最為嚴(yán)苛。過(guò)去的她想做個(gè)完美的媽媽?zhuān)霃牟环稿e(cuò)——可她是常人，也曾犯錯(cuò)。她如今可能仍在努力去原諒自己犯過(guò)的那些錯(cuò)。她全心全意地希望可以回到過(guò)去換種做法，但是她無(wú)能為力。所以對(duì)她寬容一些，要知道她那時(shí)已經(jīng)在自己的能力范圍內(nèi)做到最好了。

5. 她會(huì)端詳你熟睡的樣子。很多個(gè)夜晚，她會(huì)熬夜到凌晨三點(diǎn)，祈禱你最終可以安然入睡。她在唱搖籃曲的時(shí)候幾乎困得無(wú)法睜眼，她會(huì)乞求你：“拜托，拜托快睡吧?！比欢?，當(dāng)你終于熟睡，她會(huì)把你放下來(lái)，坐在你身邊，看著你無(wú)瑕的天使般的小臉，那時(shí)她會(huì)感到所有的疲倦暫時(shí)一掃而光，只體會(huì)著從未想過(guò)會(huì)有的愛(ài)意，盡管那時(shí)候自己已經(jīng)雙臂疲憊、兩眼酸痛。

6. 她把你抱在懷里可遠(yuǎn)不止九個(gè)月。你需要她抱著你，她就抱著你。她會(huì)學(xué)著在打掃衛(wèi)生的時(shí)候抱著你；她會(huì)學(xué)著在吃飯的時(shí)候抱著你；她甚至?xí)谒X(jué)的時(shí)候也抱著你，因?yàn)橛袝r(shí)這是她唯一能做的方式。她的手臂會(huì)疲憊不堪，她的后背會(huì)疼痛難忍，但她抱著你一動(dòng)不動(dòng)，只因你想貼在她身邊。她緊緊地抱著你，深?lèi)?ài)著你，親吻著你，還陪你玩耍。你在她的臂彎里感到安全；你在她的臂彎里體會(huì)快樂(lè)；你知道自己在她的臂彎里被疼愛(ài)著。所以她抱著你，無(wú)論何時(shí)，無(wú)論多久，如你所需。

7. 你每次哭泣都令她心碎。世界上沒(méi)有任何聲音會(huì)比你的哭聲更令她難過(guò)，也沒(méi)有任何景象比你無(wú)瑕小臉上劃過(guò)淚水更令她害怕。她竭盡所能地哄你停止哭泣，當(dāng)她無(wú)法幫你止住眼淚的時(shí)候，她的心會(huì)碎成千百萬(wàn)片。

8. 她處處以你為先。她可以不吃飯，不洗澡，不睡覺(jué)。她總是把你的需求放在自己的前面。她會(huì)花一整天的時(shí)間去滿足你的要求，晚上的時(shí)候，她已沒(méi)有精力留給自己。但是第二天，她會(huì)在醒來(lái)之后再次重復(fù)前一天的事情，因?yàn)槟銓?duì)她尤為重要。

9. 她會(huì)反復(fù)做上述所有事情。對(duì)任何人來(lái)說(shuō)，當(dāng)媽媽都是最艱難的工作之一，有時(shí)，它會(huì)讓你挑戰(zhàn)極限。你哭泣、你傷心、你嘗試、你失敗、你努力，你學(xué)習(xí)。但是，你也體會(huì)著超乎想象的快樂(lè)，感受著滿溢于心的愛(ài)意。盡管你讓媽媽經(jīng)受了所有這些痛苦、悲傷、熬夜和早起，她仍然愿意為你一再重復(fù)，因?yàn)槟阒档盟绱藢?duì)待。所以，下次見(jiàn)面的時(shí)候，記得對(duì)你的媽媽表示感謝，讓她知道你愛(ài)她。她對(duì)這句話百聽(tīng)不厭。